I’m having such a had time dealing with the past few days
We haven’t even talked in 2 days
I just feel so empty. But I feel guilty about it because I know you’re having good days doing stuff you need/want to do.
But it’s really starting to physically hurt. My body starts going into shutdown mode without you.
It’s taking everything I have to not break down and cry.
i havent smiled in 3 days
goodnight my love
im going to stop texting and calling you completely, i dont want to bug you anymore
i love you so much
i hope you are feeling good and having a good time
i miss you very much
ive been listening to old voicemails from you all day, just to hear your voice again
i love you
of course im stupid so i think that you’re like obsessed with C now
so i checked her damn tumblr and she made this long asspost about how she’s in love with a writer and how shes writing shit for him and how much shes in love with him and stuff
and all i can think is you’re a writer
is she fucking writing this for you
and now you’re saying on damn ktt saying that you’re snorting pills
and im like wow so of course now he;s calling her and he’s high as fuck flirting with her
and i litterally just want to die
ive come so close to cutting all day yesterday and all day today
and i haven;t
but i want to so bad
i just hate myself so much
and i have this horrible pain in my chest and i can literally feel my heart breaking
i cant breathe
Everytime I see more than 1 person on my blog, I wonder if it’s you
Sad thing is that it’s probably not
so i guess i should tell you that i’ve got both your tumblrs, ktt, and your last.fm open in tabs on my computer and have all day
when i think about you i refresh them all to see if there’s anything new
and as im listening to kings of leon, I check them again and I see you’re listening to the exact same song.
I can’t help but feel that you’re at least somewhat with me right now
I still miss you like crazy though
i cant stop thinking about you
even been listening to fucking kol and the new tyler album
this is driving me crazy
i just want to fucking feel better
i just want to talk to you
im tired of crying all day long
im tired of pretending everything is okay
i keep hoping this is a fucking april fools joke
but its not funny
stupid bullshit makes me want to vomit
